It Is What It Is, I Suppose.

So I called my cousin because of all my shit that’s going on. Granted this is the first time...

Fri, 17 May 2013 15:15:04 -0500

So I called my cousin because of all my shit that’s going on. Granted this is the first time I’ve really reached out to him in a very long time. He told me to remember people for the good memories and qualities and to never forget where I come from. He told me to remember that I’m a survivor and a fighter and that I have always fought for what I wanted.

I need to remember where I come from. I think in the last two years, I’ve completely lost sight of what has always been important to me. I look in the mirror and I don’t even know who that girl is. I don’t even recognize myself. What the hell happened to me? A year ago, I would have never thought I would do something like this, betray a friend who was, and still is, very dear to me. I don’t even know who I am anymore.

I think it’s time to take my fucking life back. And maybe someday I can forgive myself. I used to be so strong and so sure of myself and what I wanted and now I’m not sure about anything. I have never been so lost and I have never been in more pain. I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I start therapy tomorrow and I’m scared. I’m just hoping that above all else, it can help me move on and become a better person, and remind myself of that girl who was so sure of herself and remind myself of who that girl wanted to become.

As of this Saturday at 2pm, I will be officially back in therapy. For a psychology major, who wants...

Thu, 16 May 2013 20:53:27 -0500

As of this Saturday at 2pm, I will be officially back in therapy.

For a psychology major, who wants to be a clinical psychologist, I have never been more anxious about it.

I can’t live with myself like this. I will never forgive myself for doing this. I will never...

Thu, 16 May 2013 10:55:42 -0500

I can’t live with myself like this. I will never forgive myself for doing this.

I will never forgive myself.

"DiCaprio and Mulligan, meanwhile, don’t seem like star-crossed lovers so much as a delusional man in..."

Mon, 13 May 2013 10:45:14 -0500

“DiCaprio and Mulligan, meanwhile, don’t seem like star-crossed lovers so much as a delusional man in love with a bauble of a woman. Maybe that’s intentional?”

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People Magazine’s review on ‘The Great Gatsby’

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READ A BOOK

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note-the-sarcasm: Red vs Blue Meme → Two...

Thu, 09 May 2013 22:08:54 -0500

note-the-sarcasm:

Red vs Blue Meme → Two OTPs

1/2 → Agent York x Agent Carolina
“How long has he been there?” “He hasn’t left her side yet.” “It’s been days…” “And he’s dedicated.”

Well after a crazy morning, I am home and away from bad influences. Time to relax and clear my brain...

Thu, 09 May 2013 11:41:48 -0500

Well after a crazy morning, I am home and away from bad influences. Time to relax and clear my brain and focus on getting my life back together.

fukcingniall: days-and-dust: moonblossom: kisskissbigbang: an...

Wed, 08 May 2013 22:59:16 -0500

fukcingniall:

days-and-dust:

moonblossom:

kisskissbigbang:

annaomgz:

Never scroll past a twerking soldier. Thank you for serving our country with your brave booty.

Officer Booty reporting for duty.

Call of Booty

Call of Booty: Back Dat Ass Ops.

omfg

soulja boy tell em

sigh

Tue, 07 May 2013 21:07:56 -0500

*sigh*

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bonkalore: lonelybonerhead: They must have the most ridiculous...

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:42:49 -0500

bonkalore:

lonelybonerhead:

They must have the most ridiculous sex ever

*most incredible sex ever

Does anyone know by any chance how long you have to wait in the state of Illinois before you can...

Mon, 06 May 2013 16:07:00 -0500

Does anyone know by any chance how long you have to wait in the state of Illinois before you can report someone as missing? I think I may be having a crisis.

Please help.

And Flowers… Please if you read this, please go home. Please go to one of the guys’ homes and stay there. Please I can’t beg you enough. Or find a phone and call me or one of us. Please I just want to know you’re safe. I love you so much, you’ll always be one of my best friends and I just really need to know that you’re safe.

Truth Time: Best Friend

Sun, 05 May 2013 18:13:01 -0500

Right now, I feel like the most despicable human being in the entire world. I have been crying for a little over an hour, sometimes obnoxiously loud, because I feel like I should just crawl into a hole for awhile and just let myself wither away.

I did the one thing I said I would never do: betray one of my best friends. And I did and there is no turning back. I can’t live with myself knowing that this happened and knowing what I did. All I ever wanted was to have that one best friend that I could be completely myself with and have that person always be there for me, through thick and thin. I could have had that friend and he honestly probably would have been there for me through anything.

But not this. I took his trust and I destroyed it. I ruined it. And it didn’t just kill our friendship, it killed his relationship too. All I want right now is another chance to earn his trust back, but I don’t think that is going to happen. I have never in my life trusted anyone the way I trust him. He is truly the best friend I ever wanted. And right now, I want to cry at his feet and beg him to give me another chance. The last few weeks have been Hell and I don’t think I can handle this anymore.

Roger, I was wrong. I did the one thing I said I would never do. I looked you in the eye and said I would never hurt you like that and I did. Yes, I somehow convinced myself that it was to try and help you, but let’s be honest, regardless of what my reasons were, it was a totally shitty idea. I know it hurt you in so many ways and I’m sorry. I’m more sorry than I have ever been in my life and I have made so many mistakes in my life, you know that. But honestly, this was my biggest mistake.

No amount of my pain will ever match up to the pain I’m sure you’re feeling. And all I can say is I’m sorry. I don’t know if there is anything I could ever do to make this better, but please if there is, tell me. The thought that I’m losing you as my best friend is killing me a little more every day.

I don’t deserve sympathy or pity. I screwed up and I need to take responsibility for that. But I would be lying if I said I don’t miss you. I would be lying if I said seeing you laughing on the couch with the others doesn’t destroy me inside. I would be lying if I said that I have never felt more alone than I do now. I would be lying if I said I haven’t been crying every night since it happened. And I would be lying if I said that I’m OK with not being your friend anymore.

I would do anything to be your friend again. I know I can’t take back what I did. I can’t take back the actions that hurt you. But I would do anything for you. I’m sorry. I am sorry for everything.

comedycentral: This was magical. If you ever needed a reason to...

Fri, 03 May 2013 21:18:54 -0500

comedycentral:

This was magical.

If you ever needed a reason to follow @TheDailyShow, this is it.

Here’s the original segment, in case you missed it.

adirtyshisno: friendlyrvbreminders: friendly rvb reminder its easier for caboose to think of...

Fri, 03 May 2013 19:28:24 -0500

adirtyshisno:

friendlyrvbreminders:

friendly rvb reminder

its easier for caboose to think of epsilon as church and f.i.l.s.s as sheila than it is for him to understand that he’ll never see either of them again (✿◠‿◠)

OUCH

goforthandagitate: seriously, Campfield doesnt get the whole...

Fri, 03 May 2013 18:44:03 -0500

goforthandagitate:

seriously, Campfield doesnt get the whole learning process at all does he?

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darrencrissisruiningmylife: are those painted or

Fri, 03 May 2013 17:48:24 -0500

darrencrissisruiningmylife:

are those painted or

morsmordre-x: Harry Potter Etymology | Minerva...

Fri, 03 May 2013 17:47:27 -0500

morsmordre-x:

Harry Potter Etymology | Minerva McGonagall

MINERVA: The Roman counterpart to the Greek goddess named Athena. Both women in their respective mythologies represent war, handicraft and practical reason or wisdom.

MCGONAGALL: The name is Scottish (also written as McGonigle or McGonegal) and is from the Celtic name “Conegal,” which means “the bravest.”

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